USA

Hi everybody, I am officially in the United States. We landed in Seattle on Sat. the 11th. I was never so happy to see the sign that read Welcome to the United States of America.
I had such an amazing time overseas but when you know your heading home you can hardly wait to get on your own soil.
I can hardly wait to share with all of you the adventures God has brought me on.
All I can tell you for now is that He has been and is forever faithful.

More to come!

Intimacy with God

Intimacy with God was by far one of my favoritist weeks.
I am going to share some of the quotes our speaker Dan shared with us. Intimacy with God is God wanting to do something with us just because we want to. There is no ulterior motive. Just think God wanting to spend quality time with us. How beautiful is that.
In your walk as a Christian you discover that God is in love with you over and over again.
The one phrase that really hit home to me was, If God asks you to do something, your ready!
Have you ever stopped to think what kind of man Jesus was? One that you only met for 30sec. and you leave all that you know to follow Him. Are we willing to do that?
Ministry itself is not a moment but a lifestyle. God is the center and everything else branches out from Him. So everything you do, do for the glory of God.
One important rule to live by is to live by God's character and not our own experience. This is one area in witch I have had trouble. I have relied to much on my own experience. I need to trust His character.
One of the things the speaker said was, I want to lean so hard on Jesus that when He moves I fall down. I really feel that is exactly what I am here to learn.
Passion is falling in love with God. This has been a journey for me. I had to ask myself if I had fallen head over heels in love with God. Wow, not quite there yet, but on a journey to it.
Our fears can be invitations to discover how good God is. When we fail God picks us up and then brags about us. He is proud that we at least tried. That should encourage us to keep moving forward.
Well this will be the last of my writings for awhile. I am leaving today for Kathmandu, Nepal. They suggest not blogging because they want the site to be secure. Please pray for safe travels and for protection while we our overseas. I will be back in the U.S. June 11th. Hope to catch up with you then.

Sat. night prayer

We had such an amazing night on Sat. We began with praise and worship
and then went into prayer for our outreach. Then the leader asked if there was anyone who had some concerns about outreach and if they did to speak it out and the rest of the group would pray over them. I of course have been feeling overwhelmed, so I mentioned that and others began praying. Then others began sharing their concerns, and we had an amazing night of praying for each other.
We then ended with communion. We served each other. It was such a beautiful experience.

PRISONER OF IRAN - CBN.com

I just wanted to share this video with you. This was the speaker we had just this last week.
What an amazing man of God. I will share more about my week later.

Holy Spirit

I of course am behind again at writing in my blog. Sorry!
Holy Spirit week was amazing. The gifts of the Spitit are wisdom,knowledge,faith,prophecy,healing,miracles,discernment of spirits,tongues,and interpretation of tongues.
Relationship with God is not based on feelings it is based on faith in God. Sometimes if we don't feel God we forget that He is still there and doing work in our lives. I know I have experienced this in my own life. When I felt that God hadn't heard my prayers, I felt totally abandoned. I then chose to walk away, and through that time I experienced deep depression and sorrow like I have never felt before. It was a very lonely time. I knew God personally had done many things in my life, so through that my faith had been built up. But I had allowed my feelings to lead me into darkness when I should have stood on faith. God had done many amazing things in my life, so I knew His character. I should have known that He was still working. That's faith. Good thing He is patient.
One of the topics that also really hit home was on Judgement. When judgeing others you condemn yourself. Have you ever caught yourself doing or saying the same things your parents did. Well when you judge others you do the same thing that has been done to you, and not only that the same thing happens over and over. This was an eye-opener. So then we were to ask God to forgive us for the judgement upon whoever we judged. Wow I didn't realize how much I had been judgeing others.
On Wed. we had a giving night. We were to pray to God and ask Him who we were to give to and what we were to give. What an amazing night. There were people that gave up computers, ipods, clothes, hats, money. I would recommend anybody doing this. It was such a blessing to be a blessing.
On Thurs. we talked about baptism and if anybody wanted to be baptized, to either rededicate their lives or to take a stand for Christ, that we would do it that afternoon. So we went to the pool and 12 of us out of 15 were baptized. I had been baptized at 21, but I knew that I needed to rededicate my life to Him. I couldn't stop smiling. I knew God was pleased.
That night we had a Holy Spirit party. We had a balloon inside a
styrafoam cup and we were to try and blow it up. It wouldn't go far because the cup held it back. That is what our fears and anything else we allow to get in the way does. So we were to write on the cup the things that hold us back and then rip it up or stomp on it and then blow up the balloon to allow the Spirit freedom. It was an amazing way to end the week. Here's a question for you? Will you allow the Holy Spirit to have freedom in your life?

Surprise

I got a surprise in the mail the other day. I received a journal from my friend before I left, and I left it at home so mom could get some of my prayer warriors to sign it, and when I got it in the mail I was surprised to see so many people write encouraging words in it. My dad was a very busy bee running all over getting people to sign it. I just want you all to know how much that meant to me. Of course some of them I read through tears. It will be such a comfort to have this to look at while on outreach. Speaking of outreach I will be officially leaving Mar. 29th. We will be in Kathmandu, Nepal for 4 weeks, 3 weeks with the YWAM base and the last week,possibly at a village. Then on to India. There we will be in Dharmsula. Not sure of where we are staying yet. Now that this is so close and so real I will be honest I have been freaking out a little bit. Please pray for peace and that everything will go smoothly. Also I have always been a horrible packer, so pray that I will know how to pack lightly. Thank you to all who have supported me whether through prayers and/or financial. Love you all!

Plumbline

That's the title of this last weeks teaching. This was a very emotional week. It seems that God is bringing me deeper and deeper into Him each week. For those who don't know what a plumbline is, it is a simple instrument made of metal used by bricklayers to keep the wall straight. We live in a time where most people have no idea who they are, where they came from and where they are going. We went into either having a passive personality or an aggressive one. When we are passive we become silent, fearful,depressed,alone,desperate,vulnerable, and so on. When we are agressive we become critical,negative,bitter,insecure,defensive. So which one are you? I am more passive. So then we went into finding out if we are on the rejected side of the plumbline or the rebellion side. Mine was definetely rejection side. Then she went into the different manipulators. The active manipulator is one that has to remain in control at all costs. The passive one is harder to detect because it is more undercover. The competitive is sometimes dominant and sometimes the victim, depending on the situation. And then the indifferent one is just that indifferent, they win by withdrawing. There was so much good information this week that it was sometimes hard to wrap your head around.
We then went into our personality profile: 1.Compliant, always available, always praying for you, always at your side. Basically I will do whatever want. 2.Defeated, nobody calls me,or visits or prays for me. Nobody loves me, and so I will give up. 3.Competitive, have an answer for everything,I will show you how to do this. As Troy says, I doimit myself. 4.Critical, see how well I perform, pay attention to me, I'm the boss. Saying I am not loved, neither will you be. Talk about alot to take in. So ask yourself what personality do you fit in? I have discovered I am more compliant but also have a little of all of them. Talk about a whack job. Ha!Ha!
We went into past rejections and finding out where they first originated from, also past rebellions. On thurs. we all got broke up into groups and had a deliverance time. We shared what our parents were like and then some of the struggles we have faced and how we dealt with them. We asked God to show us anything in our lives that we needed to have deliverance from and then asked for forgiveness. For instance, I have had many people in my life that have said nasty things about my weight or looked at me disgustingly. I knew that was a bondage that I wanted to get rid of, so I choose to forgive these people, even if I didn't know their names. Then one of the guy leaders said on behalf of the people that of hurt you, I'm sorry, will you forgive me. So I then said yes! And this continued on until I felt I was done or when God didn't show anything else to me. I cried through the whole process, but when I was done I experienced such peace and freedom. It was well worth it. The one thing the teacher said that really hit home was when you have been hurt and you don't forgive you are only hurting yourself. You are still the victim. When you let it go and forgive you bring healing and restoration to yourself. Who wouldn't want that? If you have pain in your life choose to forgive, it doesn't matter who is right or wrong, what matters is if you choose to forgive you too will be forgiven of your wrongs. Let God handle all the other stuff. Let God carry it. Trust me He knows who has wronged you.
We also had to write a letter to God about whatever was on our heart. Then we were to write down what God said back. We were not to think just write. If you haven't tried this before, try it because it will allow you to see how God sees you. We just ask God what His response is and begin to write. I even shut my eyes and just let God write. Don't read it until the end. Trust me it will move you to tears.
Well I finally got you all caught up. Until next time. Know that God loves you and cares for you.

Relationships

So sorry for the delay in writing. These last 2 weeks have been a tad bit emotional and filling. I will try to get you updated. At the end of Spiritual Warfare we had a staff from the base that had a word for our class. He had been given the word the first week we had been here, but God told him to wait to tell us. Well the time finally came. God had told him to tell us that we were inordinate warriors and we didn't even know it yet. Then he went on to say that we are like David's mighty warriors, found in 1 Chronicles 11:10-to end. As he was telling us this I began to cry, not knowing why, thinking it had to do with not believing this was possible. Then we went into a time of worship and I couldn't even lift my face to God, I was bent over and crying harder, then I had to go lay face first on the floor and sobbed. One of the leaders came up to me to see if I needed prayer and I knew it wasn't me that was crying but God crying through me, so she prayed for me so that God would clarify. All the rest of that day and into the night I had a heaviness that I couldn't break. It didn't come to me until the next morning. God had poured out what He wanted me to do. Of course it had to do with speaking to my fellow classmates. I went to the leaders and explained to them what God had given me and asked if I could approach the class. They said yes! So on Wed. afternoon I got up in front of the class and spoke to them. Here is what he gave me. I began to tell them how hard it is for me to talk to teenagers and that when I was a teenager I found it hard, but God the stand-up comic that he is sends me to YWAM with a bunch of teenagers. So I then began to share with them how hard my first week was and how I began to pray. I prayed that God would love them through me and that I would see them through God's eyes. Now I have a love for them that is only God. I then began to say that God had put the word compassion on my heart, and I felt that we as a team were lacking compassion. So I explained to them that I feel compassion is when you walk in somebody else's shoes, I then gave them some examples. I shared with them the importance of becoming as one family. If we are to become warriors then we had to work as a team. So I had them get on their knees or on their face and ask God if there was someone they had to go and ask for forgiveness. Also just seek out God's heart and ask Him for compassion. So as that was going on we dimmed the lights and Jon our leader played guitar. We let this go on for awhile and then as I was getting up one of the guys got up and talked also about the importance of unity, and how if we are not in complete unity that God can't use us to the fullest. Then another guy, DTS leader, got up and told about the dream that God had given him. We were waves that were building up and getting ready to crash into the shore, but if we didn't have the love and the unity those waves will fall short of land. God wants to use us to reach those on shore. Both were ways to end what God had given me. Then I showed them the back of a crosstitch picture, that this is the way that we look now, all going our seperate ways, then turned it over and showed them how when we are in unity we become a beautiful picture. We then all held hands and I prayed. One of the girls also came up and felt God telling her that we needed to wash each others feet, so on Thurs. afternoon we washed each others feet. Girl did girls and guys did guys. It was the most humbling experiences ever. I really feel that this has all brought us together. The funny thing is that this was all done during relationship week. God had already planned it out. He is so good!!!
At the end of that week the leaders treated us to a day at the zoo. It is called the Cheyenne Mountain Zoo. It's up on the mountain. It felt great to get out of the class room and enjoy the outdoors. That Sat. I left for Cyndi's and stayed overnight. We had a great day, enjoyed the cheesecake factory and then drove through the mts. to the casino's, it is the most beautiful drive ever. Can't wait to do it again. I had a great time there, hoping to be able to do it again. On Sun. Melissa, my roommate, and I gave our testimony at the prison. I am really glad to be able to go there every Sun. The girls really appreciate it and I am beginning to open up with them more. I would love to do a mentoring program with them. So needless to say it was a very busy, emotional week. God is doing some amazing things in my life.

Spiritual Warfare

This last week was on spiritual warfare. What a loaded subject. I learned so much. It is good to be prepared before going on outreach. The speaker said we will be facing alot of warfare. She really stressed the importance of the armor of God.
One of the things she said that really stuck out to me was, before you go into battle with the enemy you need to ask God first if you are supposed to. If He says yes, then you are going into the battle under His protection. Some of our defensive weapons are:Obedience, Faith, the blood of the Lamb, the armor of God, confession/humility and unity. The offensive weapons are: Praying in the Spirit, Proclamation(speak the word),Preaching the gospel, Name of Jesus, Praise, Gifts of the Spirit(discerning of spirits,word of wisdom,word of knowledge,tongues@interpretation,prophecy),Opposite spirit,Fasting,Prophetic acts, and binding the enemy.
She also really stressed the importance of knowing our team. And the main objective is always on rescueing souls for the kingdom. Our focus should not be the devil, but on robbing his house(the souls).

Faith

Good morning!Thought I would share a one liner with you.
Faith is not belief without proof, but trust without reservation.
Good way to start the day!

Fire

Last week and this week have been such crazy weeks. At the end of last week our speaker went into 8 traits of a Father. A fun father,generous father,seeking father,forgiving father,merciful father,just father,lonely father, and a self-sacrificing father. The two that really spoke to me was a seeking father and a lonely. Do you know that He longs for us to be with Him. He seeks us out, are you answering? The speaker asked God what hurts you, and He said, When I'm not important to you, when I'm not included,(how often do you tell everybody else about your day,but don't include God?), when you don't help me in my time of need, when you don't care about the things I care about. Ouch! Well if that doesn't awaken you I don't know what will. God doesn't need us yet He wants us. It just makes God so personal. One of the other things that was said was that God is a being. He has a mind, He reasons, He has emotions, He chooses. As the weeks go by I am becoming more in love with Him!

On Sun. I went to church and got a chance to see Nicky Cruz, for anyone that doesn't know who that is he is in the book The Cross and the Switchblade.
He gave a very good sermon. He talked about Noah and how he had to be an ark builder and an evangelist. He warned the people. Then Nicky said even the animals were smarter than the humans, they knew something was coming. They were in tune with their creator. He went on saying how many times does God have to warn us? When will we wake up and do something?
That evening I had an evening out with a friend. We got caught up with each other. She is another friend God has blessed me with.

This week we are starting on Spiritual Warfare. Excellent speaker and I am already learning so much. I will share more at the end of the week.
Mon. we were headed down for worship and the electricity went out. Then found out that the transformer by the kitchen blew up and started the wall outside on fire. We as a class loaded up and went to our staff leaders house and had pizza there and even got the afternoon of lessons in. When we came back it still wasn't on, so supper was brought in. Then they thought that we would have to go to another motel to spend the night because the temp. was going to be below zero. So we packed an overnight bag and waited. Finally by 9:00 it came back on, and we were allowed to stay. Yeah! So it was a very crazy day! Back to normal today though.
This afternoon we had a lady come in that lives in Nepal, at the YWAM base,
and she talked to us a little about what to expect. She will be the one to set us up where we will be staying and what kind of ministry we want to get involved in. She couldn't talk long because she was taking off tonight to go back to Nepal. I can't believe this is actually happening. It's not very far away!

You Won't Relent

I heard this song yesterday in church and it just pulled at my heart.
I wanted to share it with you.
I know that this is my heart cry, I pray it is yours. Enjoy!

Pudding

Our class got to our class room at 12:00, where there was pudding in bowls on the table. We each had a bowl that we had to put our face into and pick out a letter, and then unscramble them to find out where we are going.
I bet you all want to know where that is right?
Well............drum roll please, it's India and Nepal. Yeah! And we all get to stay together.

Rest

That is what I have needed most these last couple of days. I think ever ything has begun to catch up with me. We finished up with the Father Heart of God on Thursday. We learned about coming into obedience while under authority. Some things he said where, to get wisdom you have to learn to process your emotions. How often do we let our emotions be the deciding factor? Too often. Wisdom+Power=Authority. We have 7 spheres of society that has been taken over by the government, home,church,education,Gov't,arts/entertainment,media,and business. It was never intended to be this way. The purpose of gov't is to punish evil, promote community and balance out community and protect the individual. We as christians have failed to stand for Christ and what is morally right. It's time. Submit and display the attitude of Christ. If for some reason you have not accepted Christ as your Savior, now is a good time. No matter what you have done, it will not stop Him from loving you. Just invite Him into your heart and confess your sins to Him, trust me He knows them already, ask for forgiveness, and allow Jesus to rule in your life. You will never be the same. God has definetely been working on my heart while I have been here. Let Him work on yours.
I will be going to a juvenile prison for girls, ages 14-19, Sunday afternoon, for my outreach. So please pray that God would give me the right words to speak. It will be hard because we will not be allowed to touch them.
God gave me the most amazing day of rest today. It was 61 outside, yes I said it correctly, 61. I went to Garden of the Gods and sat at the visitors center outside and enjoyed the view. It felt so good to be out. I really needed it.
I will leave you with a devotional. God is always on duty in the temple of your heart, His home. It is the place where Someone takes your trouble and changes it into His treasure. Here is another one. The grace of God means something like: Here is your life. You might never have been, but you are because the party wouldn't have been complete without you. Here is the world. Beautiful and terrible things will happen. Don't be afraid. I am with you. Nothing can ever separate us. It's for you I created the universe. I love you. GOD

Father's love for a hurting generation

That is our message for this week. The speaker starts out with asking us to become as little children. Have you noticed that kids have a sense of fairness and justice, they have a conscience,are transparent,are,honest,trusting,resilient,creative.They are also tranquil, affectionate,they are learners,givers,are humble,and love to laugh. If you read over all of these again you will realize that I just listed the characteristics of a Father's love. Awesome!
Then we went into past hindrances and how to get to the road to freedom.
Later that afternoon he had us bow our heads and ask God to show us if we had any past hindrances. Before you know it many people were crying and some of us began to pray out loud. Then he and the staff came over and prayed for us. It was a very exhausting and great day!
I learned about what my favorite word means. WAIT! It means Worship,Attitude,Intercede,and Teachable. Puts a whole new perspective on WAIT doesn't it? Everything in His time.
It just seems that the weeks go by so fast. It won't be long and we will be overseas. Crazy thought!

Fear of the Lord

This is the subject we learned about this week. Our teacher was originally from Australia, so he was great to listen to. There was so much I learned thru this week. What exactly is the fear of the Lord? It is having reverance, awe, worship, respect for Him. Also it means to hate evil. We learned about conviction and condemnation. Conviction comes from God and condemnation comes either from Satan or our own mind. We also talked about our conscience. Some of us have a strong conscience where nothing bothers them and some of us have a weak conscience where we are very strict with ourselves. One thing that he said that really made me think was, Sow a thought- reap an action. Sow an action-reap a habit. Sow a habit-reap a character. Sow a character-reap a destiny. Really makes you think doesn't it? On Fri. we had a lady come in and she is going to teach us how to study the bible. I am really looking forward to that. Also another lady will be coming in each week and help us to debrief, we had to explain what we learned to a people group and ours was to non-christians. It was a very good exercise and she said it would help us on our outreach.
I can't begin to tell you the change that took place this last week among my roomates. I had a great week. I think it just takes a little adjusting. We also began getting together one night a week and praying for one another. I think this will really draw us together. I still have been praying that God would continue to love them through me, and that He would give me words to say to relate to them.
I found this saying in my journal that I really liked. Love comes while we rest against our Father's chest. Joy comes when we catch the rhythms of His heart. Peace comes when we live in harmony with those rhythms.
It says in Ephesians 1:11-12, It's in Christ that we find out who we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had His eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone. How great it is to know He has His eye on us isn't it?
I can't begin to tell how much your prayers have meant to me. Thank you and please continue.
I should know next week where we are going for outreach. I will keep everybody posted.

Kari Jobe - The More I Seek You w/lyrics

Wasn't sure if this came thru the last time!

Kari Jobe - The More I Seek You w/lyrics

I came across this song the other day at church and I have been in love with it ever since. Just listen to the words and get lost in His presence. Enjoy!

Had a very hard night on Sunday. I felt totally left out again. I didn't know what to do or how to respond. So of course when in doubt cry. I finally had to leave and drive around for a bit,crying out to God. Why in the world do I have to go through this again.
The next day my one on one came up to me and asked me how I was doing and I started to cry. She said were going for lunch. So we got off base for 2 hours and visited, she is a Godsend. Monday night I got a package from mom and dad and a card from Kerry and Carole and got to talk to Kelly and Carole, so God really supplied me with amazing support. I've also gotten encouraging e-mails and texts. So Please keep it up because it makes such a huge difference.
There always seems to be devotional that hits home when I need it the most. Mondays was:Sometimes when it seems our whole world is crumbling, it is difficult to believe that God is at work on our behalf. God's ways are not our ways. His thoughts are unlike our thoughts, His plans are much bigger than we could ever imagine or dream. Let Him work in His unique way and watch as His beautiful plan is revealed in your life. Good huh!
Tuesday went alot better. We have a new speaker this week. He is speaking on the Fear of the Lord. Really good! So much info. but so interesting.
Thanks to all who haved prayed and continue to pray!

Sunday

I went to Springs church today. The pastor is David Wilkerson's son, Gary. I didn't get to hear him preach because he had a guest preacher, who was Tim Dilena. Amazing! I enjoyed the music and the people.
I finally finished my journal today, it needs to be handed in tomorrow morning so our one on one can read it. She determines if we are understanding all that the speakers are speaking on.
Tomorrow is another full week.

Hearing the voice of God

That was our subject for this week. All I can say is WOW! After having such a hard weekend, I awoke on Tues. morning singing I Have Decided to Follow Jesus! I realized it was my choice to how I see the day. That is also what the speaker spoke on. Every day is a brand new day, we haven't lived this one before and its our choice on how we do. I always marvel how God works these teachings into my life. One of the statements that our teacher said that really struck me, was "It's our lack of faith that causes us not to hear God's voice." Hearing is the most important thing, then it is to obey! How often do we choose not to do that part? We had to do an exercise and ask God: 1)Who are you to me? 2)Who am I to you? We had to be still and ask God this and then write down what He says. I had really struggled with this, because what I felt God was to me, I had to ask myself if I truly believed it. This is a great exercise for anybody. Try it! We also learned that God asks 2 things of us: 1)to love Him 2)to love others. Should be easy right! The key is to put Him first. One thing that was a comfort to me was that when He calls you He will equip you! The speaker had us sit on the floor where she had a tablecloth down and a glass with liguid and she said that we are going to have a picnic with God. She said we needed to bring God down to our level and talk to Him as we would our friends. It was such a good picture. We later had to break up into teams and ask God these questions? 1)Who is it you want us to pray for? 2)What is it that you want us to pray? 3)How do you want us to pray? 4)How do we involve the other teams? That was quite the exercise. We asked God to empty out our minds and speak to us. We were to write down whatever came to us, no matter how silly it sounded. After that we were to ask God to confirm all of it, and then start tieing all the pieces together. That was so amazing! That afternoon we had to present it to the class. This is called creative intercession. I have experienced intercession before but not like this. I will not look at intercession the same again! On our last day of class, our teacher then spoke to us what God had placed in her heart. Mine fit me to a tee! I am finally enjoying a day off! Trying to catch up on everything. We have journals we have to keep up on and bible verses that we have to go over and write our thoughts on. Lots of thinking and pondering. I haven't done that for so long, so its taking awhile. But I'm definetely enjoying what I'm learning. Tomorrow is a brand new day!

God is funny!

This is how funny God is. Today when we had class they said that they pray about what the theme, yes Tiff there is a theme, should be for this year and they came up with REST. Here in your presence Lord, I find my rest. It seems that God continues to say this to me over and over. He not only says Be still and know that I am God, but my title for my blog is Being Still. How much more clearer can He be.

Alot has happened over the weekend. I constantly wonder how am I going to relate to these kids? Friday night I got back to the room and nobody was here so I did some more unpacking, and then one of the girls came in, so I strike up a conversation with her and she is also wondering how to relate to these girls, she is only 21 and feels the same way. How can that be? In alot of ways we are the same. We had an amazing talk. I thought how great it was to be able to relate to somebody.
The other roommate is very selected on who she talks with, and I am definetly not it. It brings me back to high school again. It brings back all the old insecurities again. It's like not fitting in all over again.
Sat. Cyndi came down so all of us went for supper and then I stayed at the room with them that night.

Sunday was a very hard day. Got ready and had to say goodbye to mom and dad. Now I know it's for real. I went to church with an amazing couple, Dusty and Heather @ family. Was really glad I had something to do otherwise it would have been a very long, hard day. Came back to the room and got into sweats and was ready for a nap and the roommates came in and also the next door girls. I think our room is the hangout. So hopefully I will get to know them better. Sunday night was testimony night. I can't believe some of the stuff these kids have been through already at such an young age. I pray that I will be able to help in some way.

Yet I still deal with why I'm here. As I was reading the devotional this morning this really hit me. If you've entrusted God with your eternal soul, don't you think you should trust Him with your daily needs @ burdens? Enough to claim the daily strength He offers? Sounds simple right? Also in another devotional God says I AM WHO I SAY I AM! John the baptist said he was "the voice". John was a satisfied man, confident and content in his knowledge of himself. Can you say that about yourself? I am_________! I still haven't been able to fill in that line. Maybe thats why I'm here, to find out who I am.

Self is the opaque veil that hides the face of God from us.(A.W. Tozer)

I finally made it here! I wasn't expecting this day to be so hard, but it was. I had quite a few cries througout the day! Everything just seemed to hit me all at once. I thought how am I going to be able to handle this. I didn't realize what a huge step this was. Yet I know I'm supposed to be here and I know that God's hand is all over this. I'm praying my outlook will be better in the morning. In all things give thanks! I'm writing this to reassure myself.
On a positive note the Air Force Academy is not to far from here, anybody that knows me well enough knows how much I love planes and not to far from where YWAM is there is a veterinary clinic,(animals, another one of my loves). When I need a lift I can go to either place.

Well tomorrow is the big day! I will be making it to Colorado Springs tomorrow. Hard to believe that this day has finally arrived. Can't wait to see @ feel what's in store for me.

Well finally made it on the road after a day delay. We made it to Watertown. It's been a tough couple of days. Lots of emotions, saying good-bye to some amazing friends and family. I feel so blessed to have such great people in my life. My journey finally begins!

This is a song that has constantly been going through my mind. It has really been ministering to me. I feel that with my adventure around the corner, and not knowing what is ahead of me, I can honestly say I WILL FOLLOW. Enjoy!

I Will Follow- Chris Tomlin (With Lyrics)