Plumbline

That's the title of this last weeks teaching. This was a very emotional week. It seems that God is bringing me deeper and deeper into Him each week. For those who don't know what a plumbline is, it is a simple instrument made of metal used by bricklayers to keep the wall straight. We live in a time where most people have no idea who they are, where they came from and where they are going. We went into either having a passive personality or an aggressive one. When we are passive we become silent, fearful,depressed,alone,desperate,vulnerable, and so on. When we are agressive we become critical,negative,bitter,insecure,defensive. So which one are you? I am more passive. So then we went into finding out if we are on the rejected side of the plumbline or the rebellion side. Mine was definetely rejection side. Then she went into the different manipulators. The active manipulator is one that has to remain in control at all costs. The passive one is harder to detect because it is more undercover. The competitive is sometimes dominant and sometimes the victim, depending on the situation. And then the indifferent one is just that indifferent, they win by withdrawing. There was so much good information this week that it was sometimes hard to wrap your head around.
We then went into our personality profile: 1.Compliant, always available, always praying for you, always at your side. Basically I will do whatever want. 2.Defeated, nobody calls me,or visits or prays for me. Nobody loves me, and so I will give up. 3.Competitive, have an answer for everything,I will show you how to do this. As Troy says, I doimit myself. 4.Critical, see how well I perform, pay attention to me, I'm the boss. Saying I am not loved, neither will you be. Talk about alot to take in. So ask yourself what personality do you fit in? I have discovered I am more compliant but also have a little of all of them. Talk about a whack job. Ha!Ha!
We went into past rejections and finding out where they first originated from, also past rebellions. On thurs. we all got broke up into groups and had a deliverance time. We shared what our parents were like and then some of the struggles we have faced and how we dealt with them. We asked God to show us anything in our lives that we needed to have deliverance from and then asked for forgiveness. For instance, I have had many people in my life that have said nasty things about my weight or looked at me disgustingly. I knew that was a bondage that I wanted to get rid of, so I choose to forgive these people, even if I didn't know their names. Then one of the guy leaders said on behalf of the people that of hurt you, I'm sorry, will you forgive me. So I then said yes! And this continued on until I felt I was done or when God didn't show anything else to me. I cried through the whole process, but when I was done I experienced such peace and freedom. It was well worth it. The one thing the teacher said that really hit home was when you have been hurt and you don't forgive you are only hurting yourself. You are still the victim. When you let it go and forgive you bring healing and restoration to yourself. Who wouldn't want that? If you have pain in your life choose to forgive, it doesn't matter who is right or wrong, what matters is if you choose to forgive you too will be forgiven of your wrongs. Let God handle all the other stuff. Let God carry it. Trust me He knows who has wronged you.
We also had to write a letter to God about whatever was on our heart. Then we were to write down what God said back. We were not to think just write. If you haven't tried this before, try it because it will allow you to see how God sees you. We just ask God what His response is and begin to write. I even shut my eyes and just let God write. Don't read it until the end. Trust me it will move you to tears.
Well I finally got you all caught up. Until next time. Know that God loves you and cares for you.