Alot has happened over the weekend. I constantly wonder how am I going to relate to these kids? Friday night I got back to the room and nobody was here so I did some more unpacking, and then one of the girls came in, so I strike up a conversation with her and she is also wondering how to relate to these girls, she is only 21 and feels the same way. How can that be? In alot of ways we are the same. We had an amazing talk. I thought how great it was to be able to relate to somebody.
The other roommate is very selected on who she talks with, and I am definetly not it. It brings me back to high school again. It brings back all the old insecurities again. It's like not fitting in all over again.
Sat. Cyndi came down so all of us went for supper and then I stayed at the room with them that night.

Sunday was a very hard day. Got ready and had to say goodbye to mom and dad. Now I know it's for real. I went to church with an amazing couple, Dusty and Heather @ family. Was really glad I had something to do otherwise it would have been a very long, hard day. Came back to the room and got into sweats and was ready for a nap and the roommates came in and also the next door girls. I think our room is the hangout. So hopefully I will get to know them better. Sunday night was testimony night. I can't believe some of the stuff these kids have been through already at such an young age. I pray that I will be able to help in some way.

Yet I still deal with why I'm here. As I was reading the devotional this morning this really hit me. If you've entrusted God with your eternal soul, don't you think you should trust Him with your daily needs @ burdens? Enough to claim the daily strength He offers? Sounds simple right? Also in another devotional God says I AM WHO I SAY I AM! John the baptist said he was "the voice". John was a satisfied man, confident and content in his knowledge of himself. Can you say that about yourself? I am_________! I still haven't been able to fill in that line. Maybe thats why I'm here, to find out who I am.

Self is the opaque veil that hides the face of God from us.(A.W. Tozer)